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it feels awful.

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are you bored of me already?

sometimes you wake up in the morning feeling dreadful.
feeling awful, feeling alone.
sometimes the feeling wears off after awhile, sometimes icecream can help.
but sometimes, it just hurts so bad.

when you dont know what you done wrong,
when you dont know what's going on.
when you simply do not know what happened.

you get blinded by tears, by anger, by that loss.
you wont know what to do anymore.

i've no idea if its just me and my crazy imagination playing around all this time.
that whatever i thought was maybe there, is actually a mere illusion.
i dont know if whatever i thought before was really true, and that i actually believed it.
cause for a moment or two, i once thought you might actually like me.

right nao though, i feel like i just watched a bad film.
like someone just stole my icecream cone.
like someone just slapped me in the face.
like someone just trampled on my diary.
like someone just fooled me.

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