34
Hi, i got B3 for chinese.
which's pretty ok, except that half the world's getting As .______.
thought hard bout it and decided to drop Higher chinese.
:/
Right nao, im still not sure about it actually.
I mean, i studied that since like pri 3/4 all the way till nao.
changing back to normal chinese might be weird.
I hope that by dropping hcl i can better concentrate in English and score an A2 for it..
and A1 for chinese which i'll take in June.
If i dont get an A1 i can jolly go suicide laaa -_-
Sighs.
So chances of getting to Jc are pretty slim nao, since i wont be able to minus the 2 points which i need so desperately.
Which leaves me with an 80% chance of going poly.
Looked through all the courses and i cant really figure what i wanna do.
I mean sure, i dont wanna study business or tourism or accounts or science, but at the end of the day, i might be ending up choosing them since doing anything else might lead me to nathing in future.
Which sucks.
And is extremely depressing.
I thought bout going for designing or baking and culinary science..
look at that, i cant even doodle half as well as that.
hdfkdfkjdfkldjgkdsg.
feeling miserable cause i'll be losing out in those courses compared to people who take Art and F&N.
and yah, when you lose out in your course you wont be in the top percentage.
and then you cant go to uni.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
mylife.
guess my only other option which im slightly interested in is perfumery and cosmetic science.
but again, that would probably be higher chem and all soooooo....
Depressing post, i know.
But i got forced to think through things since all the teachers are like asking and asking and asking where we wanna go in future.
Oh and btw, think i'll only be posting on wednesdays and weekends..
my only free time eh, pretty exhausted on other days with tution and band.
Proficiency test for bio and chem on friday.
im gonna fail chem, like hell.
fuu demoralizing when you study for something but you still fail it yknow :/
gonna concentrate on biology first.
Damn, the only subjects im confident bout getting good results are languages and maybe lit.
the rest's just epic.
Have to start studying harder...
Have a good night yo.
