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For Jane, and my brother.

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“Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those sense weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it.
Life has to end," she said. "Love doesn't.” 
― Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven

26th April 2013.

Love.
This four lettered word which i thought noone would really comprehend.
and then life gives me an entire display of it.

Xiaoci, if you're reading this, whether you're beside me now or up in the clouds,
i hope you're happy.

And i want to thank you, for changing my bro in every way possible, for being in his life.

I'm sorry, for not visiting you once you were diagnosed.
i was afraid.
of so many unspoken things.

My thoughts are all over the place right now.

I just wanted to let you know that you are the strongest girl i've ever met in my life.
and perhaps the most beautiful in my brother's eyes.
and i want to remember you like that.
forever smiling, radiating like stars.

You've fought hard.
really really hard.
you must have felt tired.
but i hope you're happy now that the battle's over.

You're an angel now aren't you?
i hope you have white wings and can fly wherever you want to.

I'll take care of my brother, i promise.
a little bit more at least.

I guess i dont really like the ending of this fairy-tale, but it's okay i'll manage.
Would have preferred a wedding gown and some roses, but i can do without.
just know that you will live in our hearts forever and ever and ever.

we love you xiaoci, rest in peace.


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