The term has not started well, guys.
now that common tests are over, im back facing the probably undesirable results that are gonna appear.
at least i know what's in store for me i guess.
it's not gonna be a pretty sight.
so freaking stressed up i've been swearing a lil too much...
so much for keeping all goodytwoshoes for the past 6 months ._.
(what's with all these sibilance...)
desperately trying to hold everything together or find some perfectly logical explanation to back myself up.
to my parents, teachers and maybe me.
okay i kinda figured it was due to excessive daydreaming during boring lessons/lectures.
but how good of a reason is that to justify myself.
Damn, i've a lot more to buck up on.
Chinese was just disappointing.
i mean for once i thought i was finally good at some subject and can at least assure myself that im not some epic failure doing godknowswhat in college.
and then i go get myself screwed up and throw myself into square one.
-breathes-
I havent felt so hopeless since what, last may?
whereever all these messy emotions sprouted from, it has to back off.
been all angsty/emotional/stressedup since school started and it isnt getting better.
screwmylife i need sugar.
and endorphin.
someone please inject them into me.
i have so much to be happy about, i just dont get why the dark clouds are getting at me all the time.
maybe i need to just chill and think happy thoughts.
happythoughtshappythoughtshappythoughts.
Oh the irony.
Decided to rant here/break down in words because i didnt want to weigh joel down with all of these, but instead yeah he prob is gonna read this anw, and im subjecting this to the whole world rn.
#smart.
Anyway, on the bright side.
He fared really well this round, so proud of him (:
now i gotta figure how i may or may not have managed to persuade him to study but not do so myself.
back to econs.
and mansfield park 650am in the morning.
enjoy your friday people, may my currently lost happiness be with you guys while it's on its way back into my life.
