And when you pick up your phone, everything will seem to make sense. You will wonder why you spent so many years chasing after people who only gave you parts of love, little fractions and pieces of it, when there are people in the world who are ready to let you have it all. Because you feelthey love you in their wholeness, when they wrap their arms around you and you can tell that they are taking every little bit of you in. You can be ugly, sick, sad, messy, and they will still want to be around you.
You will know they love you when you are lying in bed and go to get up to start your day — don’t want to miss a sunny Saturday, there aren’t enough of those — and they pull you in closer to them. “Don’t go,” they will tell you, let’s just stay here together.” You will realize that, to them, the most important use of their time is being pressed against you for as long as possible, that all the errands and work that they could be doing are unimportant when lying in bed is an option.
It’s one thing to want to be close on a Friday night, when you’re both a bit drunk and can’t take off your clothes quickly enough, but it’s another to want to stay close through the whole next day. And that is when they want you most.
You will bore your friends with all the stories of how great they are, just like you always do, but this time there won’t be a sad undercurrent of “trying to win them over” even after you’ve already gone home with them. These will be stories of afternoons spent at the park, and the flowers they brought you, and the texts they send you in the morning. Finally, you will be one of those people who is so obnoxiously in love — who just can’t help but talk about it — and you won’t be embarrassed.
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