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Seeing life from the other end.: the explanation some of you aka (assholes) have been dying for.
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Hi.
so here's the long awaited explanation as to whatever happened to Joel and I.
Honestly, i wouldn't have written this blog entry,
it's legit personal stuff.
but i am addressing it only because there have been many, and i mean, Many rumors or just talk going on about us.
it's not very respectful, fyi.
and Han here is not pleased about it.
Okay, basically things didn't work out.
not just for studies, which we both flunked for about er the whole of J2,
but there were differences in our situations that we couldn't compromise on no matter how hard we tried.
so yeah, we decided that there isn't a point for us to be together.
Right and then i had all these like kinda sad posts going on here,
and i suppose some of you guys just thought that shit was going down and i hate him or something.
No i do not, you fools.
It is perfectly, and i stress PERFECTLY, normal for me to be upset over a breakup right??
I mean cmon, im human.
Even if it's a mutual agreement, there will be some stinging going on.
dont pretend like you do not understand me.
It is my blog,
i write what i feel.
and that was what i felt.
so leave it.
I have to admit here that it has been rough, not just for me but for both of us, just in different ways after we split up.
and we tried to remain status quo as friends in school, hence the morning meetups.
but if you guys don't already know,
here's Han's theory 101: "People can't be friends after they break up, not when either one still holds feelings for the other."
Philosophy in your face son.
But obviously JC2 killed some brain cells so that didn't really register in my head.
so we were in a slight mess, struggling in the deep waters until recently.
and damn i wouldn't be telling any of these to you guys,
if it wasn't for some people, who simply wouldn't leave us alone.
and i mean, talking and discussing why Joel and I are spotted talking to each other in the morning,
why this, why that.
Even at prom damn it,
people were pointing fingers.
What, are you the paparazzi now?
It's really rude, some of you.
and inconsiderate.
i mean hi, do i look like i have not enough things to care about?
for instance if my hair is still tangled and if im about to fall off my stilettos?
damn, you people isshttt.
Okay, the thing is fine go ahead and talk about us, I really can't stop any of your mouths,
but hello, DO NOT, and i repeat, please do not be an imbecile and ask my friends for updates/answers to your darn questions???
excuse you, stop harassing my friends.
seriously.
If there is a question, ask me or him instead,
and look, if you do not have the guts to ask either of us,
it just tells you that
a) i guess you weren't a good friend enough for me to confide in.
b) you question is irrelevant and very much unappreciated.
Disclaimer,
the above only applies to the really .... bored people who goes like
"eh why are they still sitting together?"
Oh oh, we were sitting together cause someone stuck glue on our butts.
cmon, don't insult your intelligence, you're in a college for a reason.
pft.
whew, okay i finally got it off my chest.
and if you're wondering, those guns above are there for you chatterboxes.
now peace out, you're excused.
as for the rest of you my friends, sorry for this rather rude/angsty post,
and thanks for your genuine concern (:
here's a cute puppy for you.
I'm alright no worries,
I've learnt a lot from this experience and if there's one thing that i can share with y'all,
it would be that i still have plenty to work on myself and i'm not ready for a serious relationship anytime soon.
there's a long way to go.
I can't even really give adequate care to myself,
how am i suppose to care for another or have another fend for me?
(:
so yeahp, as of now Joel and I are still friends/still on our way to being friends again.
as Han's theory goes, there are still some feelings that hopefully time will fade away.
i don't hate him no worries, he's a great guy, really,
so don't hate him and go all #teamhan.
we just can't find a way to work things out now.
and to Joel's friends, if any of you are reading this, i hope y'all aren't pissed at me too.
okay that's all,
time to work on myself and whatever happens in future is... what they called,
the future.
it's a great relief to finally be able to talk about it.
thanks for coming over here to my world.
(:
